juicing at 45

how on earth do we know what to recommend if you dont know your goals? seriously bro, come on

i would go the light route and do something like EQ or tbol/var

300mgs testosterone cypionate/week
50mgs anavar/day
7caps n2guard/day
20mgs cardarine/day

try using equipoise 500mgs a week from domestic supply

you should mention your goals, and current stats such as bodyfat, muscles, etc..
no one can just provide a random information